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There is no word for the way You would feel When watching a 30-foot wave crash to shore   There is no word for standing at the top of a mountain The air quiet No humans around your existence   There is no word For way it might land in your body To witness the messy, gory Primal Birth of a child   There is

The Fitness World is Built to Disconnect You From Your Body

One time, I worked for a few months at a gym. As a personal trainer. It is one of the very few times in my life where I’ve had a “boss.” My boss was a man named Cedric. Personal training was a sales position, and Cedric taught me how to sell. This meant that I had to walk up to people in the gym and

Your Ego Will Tell You That You Need to Have Goals

Your ego will tell you lots of enticing things.   It will tell you that you need to have goals. That once you hit that money milestone or get to that perfect weight or find the perfect husband – that then you will have made it. Then you will be happy. Then you will have what you want. Most people spend their entire lives chasing

The moon does not say sorry

The trees do not feel attached to their beauty. The wind does not whine about how many people don’t like it. The flowers do not plan meticulously how they will bloom each season. The rain does not feel upset that it’s been coming down too long. Winter does not care about how many things she kills. The mushroom does not spend its time worrying about

Last Night He Drowned Between My Legs

Last night he drowned between my legs Slurping, opening around his face as she blossomed The windows were bare a straight path of sight for any curious neighbor And his fullness was in my mouth. Thick, throbbing with the velvety soft skin, my tongue playing with every fold And then I remembered I was not allowed to come. A rule I had set for myself,

Where It’s Really At For Me Are the Quiet Moments

People will try to sell you hot sex⁣ ⁣ And that’s great⁣ ⁣ But where it’s really at for me are the quiet moments. ⁣ ⁣ Where you are sitting in sweatpants and dirty hair and hot sauce all over your mouth and he says, “I love your body so much.”⁣ ⁣ Where you are cuddling up and going to sleep and caressing one another’s

When You Set Boundaries Other People Will Call You Selfish

I have been called Selfish more times than I can count. Self-centered. Unaccommodating. Uncompromising. A bitch. All words that people who do not have boundaries will throw at you when you set your own. They will say them because it will trigger the fuck out of the fact that they do not know what it means to set their own. I have set some of

My desire to have our home cleaned and the tricky layers underneath it

We hadn’t had our apartment cleaned in a few months because of Covid. Once the cases started rising again in Vancouver, we stopped. I hate cleaning. Anything besides light cleaning makes me miserable. Which is why we had a cleaner in the first place. So when the cases rose and we canceled her, it just didn’t get done. I think I cleaned the bathrooms once,

Going Through Death & Rebirth, Together

There have been many moments like this, the past few days. ⁣ ⁣ We are both moving through a lot. Jordan said this morning, it feels like we are going through a death and rebirth cycle together. ⁣ ⁣ It always panicked me with past partners, to go through such periods of growth – because it usually meant we were growing apart. But not this

My word for 2021

Two nights ago, I booked myself into the most luxurious hotel I could find in Vancouver. ⁣ ⁣ So much had been shifting so quickly that all I could feel was how much I needed to return to my own energy. ⁣ ⁣ I got off social media, I took the first few days completely off I’ve had in a while. ⁣ ⁣ Part of