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Everything to do with my food journey & weight gain in chronological order

this photo was taken in June. Hi loves! My food journey has turned into something bigger than I could ever have imagined (honestly, I thought I was just going to write the first article and be done with it, lol – but that has not been the case!) And I have been updating about it wherever I’ve felt like it – that means there are

I have never owned shorts like this in my life

The video that went along with this is here. I have never ever owned shorts like this in my life. ⁣ ⁣ I had Rules. ⁣ About what looked good on me. ⁣ ⁣ Light colored solid leggings were out. They showed every ounce of cellulite. ⁣ No matter how pretty I thought the colors were they were a No. ⁣ ⁣ Spandex shorts of

You can have the Big Lips

You can have the ⁣ Big Lips⁣ Taut starving⁣ Belly⁣ Shrinking back toward your⁣ Spine ⁣ Get off on the ⁣ Indentations⁣ Of your skin toward the ⁣ Bone⁣ The way it⁣ Stretches⁣ over your hips⁣ You can wax your pussy⁣ Bare⁣ Fill your breasts with plastic⁣ Bags⁣ Inject your brows⁣ To make them⁣ Smooth⁣ Paste on⁣ Eyelashes ⁣ Eat ⁣ Less ⁣ You can

Here are some hints you have disordered eating

Here are some hints you have disordered eating:⁣ ⁣ You would choose to *not eat* a meal over eating McDonald’s ⁣ ⁣ You think some foods are not real food⁣ ⁣ You feel superior for your way of eating ⁣ ⁣ You feel good about yourself for not eating certain food groups⁣ ⁣ You are scared of certain food groups⁣ ⁣ You think eating at

The journey of eating more has been long & slow

In August of 2020 I had a call with a woman who told me I needed to eat. I was telling her about this thing that I did. How I would wait many hours to eat breakfast growing grumpier by the second. How I would feel annoyed at my body for being hungry. How it would happen all over again at lunch and I hated

Something I love about Jordan is the way he will compliment other women

Something I love about Jordan is the way he will compliment other women ⁣ I know he does it when I’m not there but he also does it when I am. ⁣ ⁣ He will tell them how they have the most amazing eyes⁣ How he likes their eyebrows ⁣ Or their makeup⁣ Or their outfit⁣ Or their presence ⁣ ⁣ He will ask about

I have often felt like I’ve had to apologize for the size that I am

I have often felt like I’ve had to apologize for the size that I am. ⁣ ⁣ For the way that my entrance into people’s lives seems to shake them up, show them things they would rather not have seen. ⁣ ⁣ I literally sometimes want to be like “I am sorry that you know me because you didn’t choose this” ⁣ Though I have

I am often suspicious when other people tell me they “have” to do something

I am often suspicious when people tell me they “have to” do something. ⁣ ⁣ Because it is rare that something has to be done. ⁣ ⁣ But I have work⁣ But I don’t have enough money ⁣ But this person needs my response⁣ But I said I would⁣ ⁣ If you had a contagious illness and couldn’t get out of bed then what would

The first time I finally felt full – crying while eating a burger

Here is the link to the video this post is referencing. On Sunday after a long day at the spa we went to get burgers. ⁣ ⁣ I looked at the menu. ⁣ ⁣ Last time we were at this place I built my own burger with only my approved ingredients and I got a lettuce bun. ⁣ Lettuce buns are so sad I just

Sad celebration of the life of my past self

A month and a half ago I went to the beach. I was in my new, bigger body, but I hadn’t fully inhabited her yet. I felt like I was letting go of the girl – really she was slowly being pulled away from me – but I wasn’t yet fully in my woman. I got on a call with Perri, crying, and she said