Leaving

October 21, 2017 ~ Demetra nyx

 

I am Bleeding.

I have been lying here all day,

melting into the oceans

of my sheets.

Pressing into pillows while

my stomach screams at me.

I know, I say.

I hear you. That is why we are resting. 
 

Later,

I splash water on my body

and I think:

 

I am finally

listening

to myself.

 

She says:

 

This is what I have been trying

to tell you all along.

 

My back aches, while everything

spins around me

And I am still.

 

My inbox is full of I love yous

Jupiter has entered my 8th house

I wallow for a while

But I like wallowing.

 

Deciding is like

throwing myself out of an airplane.

If I pull the string

I will fall and catch myself

In time to see Eden.

 

Or I might miss