In 2019, I made a conscious decision to start working on the beliefs I held around money. The first year of my business had been super inconsistent. I had $0 months and $6k months, and I never knew which one would happen. I had money, but I was always stressed about it. I wouldn’t look at my credit card statement or my bank account balance
The trees do not feel attached to their beauty. The wind does not whine about how many people don’t like it. The flowers do not plan meticulously how they will bloom each season. The rain does not feel upset that it’s been coming down too long. Winter does not care about how many things she kills. The mushroom does not spend its time worrying about
2020 has been the best year of my life, to be completely honest. I have watched in awe as this virus has made me question every area of my life. I lost so many friends that were no longer true. I lost aspects of my business that were no longer true – I noticed how many of them were my ego trying to “get” somewhere
My little girl is dropping away. A few weeks ago I took part in a David Deida workshop, where I felt into the full power of my feminine expression. Where I met Jordan as a woman, sexually – where I showed up in my full responsibility for my energy. I turned 28 this year. And in a way, when I look back through my twenties,
If you have a KNOWING If you know, deep down inside your body, that this is the next right thing And you ignore it That is the biggest disrespect to life. Here she is, offering you Opportunity On a silver platter Saying this is it, this is your next step And you turn. It.
Day 1 Her mood changes daily. Some days she is raging, crashing Charging up the shoreline Bigger, taller, demanding. Other moments she is gentle. Continual rhythmic motions Ice cold, in this part of the world Slowness An invitation to enter And cleanse. Some days she is completely still. Resembling something else, almost Her waves
Everything is adjusting. I just kept hearing that last night, stepping carefully through the rocks, ocean by my side. Everything shifting, as you open. Rearranging itself. Falling into place. All timelines. All layers of self. All possibilities. Everything, as you open, soften. Saying, you have always had this. Now you are feeling it.
Last night I went looking for her, the girl I was 9 years ago, the girl who lost her brother. I re-activated my first Facebook ever. I remembered writing messages to Damon, while he sat unconscious in the ICU, because I didn’t know how else to talk to him. Talking directly to him was weird, because he didn’t respond. So I wrote my messages through
The earth longs to be seen by us. Not seen with your eyes. Not like “oh, that’s a pretty tree.” It longs to be felt. Deep inside your body. To be recognized as another being. Each tree. The mud. Each branch, leaf, bug, body of water. They want you to feel them. To open and allow them in. To allow for an energetic exchange. We
Earlier this year, I was lying on the grass, headphones in, listening to one of my teachers talk about feeling your full desire. She mentioned how when we don’t express 100% of our desire to someone, we rob them of the ability to feel 100% of our appreciation. I thought about how I owed Jordan money. How I was “supposed” to feel so grateful to