Trusting Life

My reflections on 2020: dripping, wet, & ready for 2021

2020 has been the best year of my life, to be completely honest. I have watched in awe as this virus has made me question every area of my life. I lost so many friends that were no longer true. I lost aspects of my business that were no longer true – I noticed how many of them were my ego trying to “get” somewhere

If you have a KNOWING

If you have a KNOWING⁣ ⁣ If you know, deep down inside your body, that this is the next right thing⁣ ⁣ And you ignore it⁣ ⁣ That is the biggest disrespect to life. ⁣ ⁣ Here she is, offering you ⁣ ⁣ Opportunity⁣ ⁣ On a silver platter ⁣ ⁣ Saying this is it, this is your next step⁣ ⁣ And you turn. It.

Messages from nature: Days 1-11 (part 1 of 3)

Day 1 Her mood changes daily. ⁣ ⁣ Some days she is raging, crashing⁣ Charging up the shoreline ⁣ Bigger, taller, demanding. ⁣ ⁣ Other moments she is gentle. ⁣ Continual rhythmic motions⁣ Ice cold, in this part of the world ⁣ Slowness⁣ An invitation to enter ⁣ And cleanse. ⁣ ⁣ Some days she is completely still. ⁣ Resembling something else, almost⁣ Her waves

Everything is adjusting

Everything is adjusting. ⁣ ⁣ I just kept hearing that last night, stepping carefully through the rocks, ocean by my side. ⁣ ⁣ Everything shifting, as you open. Rearranging itself. Falling into place. ⁣ ⁣ All timelines. All layers of self. All possibilities.⁣ ⁣ Everything, as you open, soften. ⁣ ⁣ Saying, you have always had this. ⁣ ⁣ Now you are feeling it. ⁣

9 years ago today I lost my brother

Last night I went looking for her, the girl I was 9 years ago, the girl who lost her brother. I re-activated my first Facebook ever. I remembered writing messages to Damon, while he sat unconscious in the ICU, because I didn’t know how else to talk to him. Talking directly to him was weird, because he didn’t respond. So I wrote my messages through

The earth longs to be seen by us

The earth longs to be seen by us. Not seen with your eyes. Not like “oh, that’s a pretty tree.” It longs to be felt. Deep inside your body. To be recognized as another being. Each tree. The mud. Each branch, leaf, bug, body of water. They want you to feel them. To open and allow them in. To allow for an energetic exchange. We

Feeling and naming your full desire: Jordan pays for our lives & this is what that looks like

Earlier this year, I was lying on the grass, headphones in, listening to one of my teachers talk about feeling your full desire. She mentioned how when we don’t express 100% of our desire to someone, we rob them of the ability to feel 100% of our appreciation. I thought about how I owed Jordan money. How I was “supposed” to feel so grateful to

A letter to Money

Dear Money, The truth is that you’ve always had my back, haven’t you? Yet I’ve been ashamed of you. I’ve hidden you from others, I’ve pretended like you didn’t exist, and I’ve ignored your existence – all while you fulfilled my every desire. I acted as if you were unimportant, because I thought that would make me seem cool. I pretended that we weren’t as

You already deserve the things you want

You are worthy because you exist. You are worthy because you are. I’ve been reflecting a lot lately on the individualistic ideals of the Western world. On our meritocracy, which says that we can have anything we want, as long as we work hard enough for it, as long as we prove we deserve it. When we are raised in a particular framework, we view