Trusting Life

Let it rock you

It makes sense if you feel lost, confused. It makes sense if you feel trapped in, uncertain, irritable, and like you’re not sure where to turn. The global energy has shifted, quickly. Seemingly without warning. We’re experiencing a kind of collective panic, a collective grief. But we know what to do with grief, here.  Let it rock you. Let it crumble down the false narratives

The same experiences you can have with psychedelics are possible through sex

There are many ways to access the same feelings, the same sensations and types of visions. Drugs, meditation, breathwork, sex. I have a distaste for relying on external sources to get to that place. If a trip is your first entry into that kind of experience, fine. But there is an Alan Watts quote that I really love: “When you get the message, hang up the

Your wake-up call for how you’re living your life right now

Buses with only one person on board All fares free City sidewalks empty   I’ve heard that the only two times global warming slowed were when the Cold War happened and the stock market crashed I wonder if this is another   It’s eerie, almost But the birds are louder   I wonder, if all stores if all systems Shut Down Would that be sad?

the crows, unconcerned, will be happy to eat our bodies when they fall

Queen of the underworld She ate pomegranate, took the darkness inside her She became it   The crows, unconcerned will be happy to eat our bodies when they fall   The earth is responding She is hitting reply to the rape She is posting about the amount of destruction   She is not angry, just giving back equal energy   Humans they think they are

Finding pleasure in the time of pandemic (and crisis in general)

Eight years ago, my brother was in the ICU with a traumatic brain injury, in a coma. No one knew whether he’d wake up or die. My entire world was flipped upside down. My days were filled with tears, I was constantly anxious, and I didn’t know how to calm my nervous system. In addition to my pervasive anxiety, though, I found myself reaching for

you’re drowning in the news (covid-19)

You’re drowning in the news It sucks you in, like quicksand but you chose it   maybe This piece of you was already here Waiting, underneath the surface   the part of you that knows the earth is dying, humans are already dying   It jumps at the opportunity to scream apocalypse Order an emergency kit Order food for thirty days   Just in case,

9 things you must understand to stop letting doubt and fear run your life

If you struggle to trust yourself completely and make decisions in your own life, you’ll rarely get what you want – and even if you do, you’ll still doubt that you deserve to receive it. This is hard, because it will paralyze you. You’ll find that you end up living a life that’s on everyone else’s terms. You might even follow the rules for so

The way you have been taught to feel is wrong

Once, I was leading a group of women through an emotional expression practice. I demoed for them: screams and growls of anger, moans of sadness, dry heaves of disgust. When I told them it was their turn, many of the women participated, some a bit hesitantly – and two in particular did not participate at all. At the end of the practice, as we were

This one thing is holding you back from feeling free to be who you are

If you do not know deeply, unshakably, that your body belongs to you, you will struggle. If you are not FOR yourself. If you are not in alignment with what your body wants first and foremost. Then you cannot have the life you really want. You will be forever burdened with thoughts of “if only” and “what if.” You will be anxious and unsettled and

How I got over my breakup in 3 weeks

I went through a breakup last summer. We had been dating for two and a half years, and had been best friends for eight. We traveled the world together and had finally settled in California. He was a very significant part of my life, and I loved him deeply. We broke up in the beginning of June … and by the end of the month